I took a bus yesterday from Toronto to NYC. Arrived in the evening. I had really felt the Lord showing me NYC(and a very surprising msg about Kansas City) during this trip and wondered if I was supposed to stay in NYC. I went and looked up housing in the city and found this room in Brooklyn for sublease to the end of July for about $600 + utilities. This is a very reasonable price for the city. I was trying to make all the arrangements but was not able to find a place to stay in the city for the night. I was really puzzled and stopped at time square to pray. Part of me wanted to stay in the city by faith and see what happens and part of me just want to go back to Philly to rest. I didn't know what I should really do. I don't know if you guys ever had this dilemma. It happens quite a bit to me after I started to just follow Him and learn to live totally by faith, cause I don't want to just make my own arrangements for personal security, but yet there is a certain amount of security that I realize I still need. In any case I walked to time square and sat down. I felt peace in my heart the whole way, so unlike what I felt before walking in this city. I felt like I should make my way to the bus station to catch the bus to Philly. I told the Lord if I received some phone calls from anyone in the city offering a place to stay then I would stay, but if not, I will go back to Philly, pray and seek Him and make out here to the city when I feel sure I hear His voice again. Do you think that I have done right? or have I compromised? Anyways, I make out to the bus station, there was no msg for me. But I found a bus ticket I bought for Philly from a previous trip so I used that. As I sat on the bus I started to feel very rested. The truth is I was so exhausted so I fell asleep right away.
I got off the bus and I was standing right in the middle of a crazy part of downtown Philly. It looked so much like the Harlem. I was standing there and the glory of God was there! I can't explain it but the clarity in the air, even though the place is littered with homeless people sleeping and intense looking burly men staring at me. I felt total peace and just the desire to worship Him. He was there with me! I ran into an extremely kind and polite homeless man, sat and shared food with him and some other guy showed up and chatted. Just felt the love of Jesus flowing in our midst. Then went home with auntie Mim.
In a way I'm so glad that I got "home"! oh and what a comfort to be here with auntie Mim. But on the other hand I wonder what would happen if I stayed in NY last night? Have I chosen wisely? What would you do?
I woulda gone back to my bed in Philly too :)
ReplyDeletei think you're doing great hanna. i'm learning how to hear God's voice everyday. we'll be learning how to hear his voice until we meet him face to face! and you said you felt his peace and presence in the midst of you and the homeless guy. that is an always an awesome sign that you are in his will :)
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